Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Another day, another song

...another page, another tear. Writing your savior's death in gory detail and the emotional pain it causes is really a dark place to be mentally.

Since I've lately become extremely interested in Assassin's Creed, I listened to this song while writing. It's the one from the opening intro of Ezio in Masyaf and gives me just the right atmosphere.



I've been watching a playthrough of Assassin's Creed: Revelations, so I haven't gotten to the end. I just know something really sad is coming because people have been talking about it. What does this have to do with my story? Well I decided a few days ago to base Jesus on Altaїr's character--the strength and authoritativeness--(how many scrabble points is that?!) not the killing he does, obviously. So I don't know. For some reason, his character has really gripped me and I'm not sure how I'm going to take the ending emotionally. Silly, right? It's a video game character for pity's sake! If only they didn't look so stinkin' realistic in the cinematic of the game. You know how sometimes you wish a storybook character was real, like Mr. Darcy or Gilbert Blythe? They have actors who personify them, but you know it's just pretend and you can let it go. In this case, the cinematic was so incredibly lifelike that it was like looking at it all in reality. If only I had the ability to do that with my story.

Anyway, I've been writing for about two and a half hours so I had to take a break and get my thoughts out while they were fresh. I'm pretty exhausted mentally, so no more writing today.

Saturday, January 7, 2012

Merchant Prince - Updated Entry

Edit: I decided to add a bit of the text I wrote today, Tuesday, to add to this post, which was originally done on Saturday. Yes, this is the climax of the 2nd part (which may be the 3rd, depending on how I have to cut it.) but this is something I just can't keep locked away. 

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Before taking time to write today, I came across a fan video for the game Assassin's Creed. The music they used is by an instrumental band I'm already familiar with called Two Steps from Hell. They do music for movies and trailers. I hadn't heard this particular track before (Merchant Prince) and I haven't stopped listening to it since. If it's not on my mp3 player, it's stuck in my head. I hear it before I go to bed and I hear it when I wake up. Then I choose to turn on the song and listen to it some more. =D

That first day I heard it, I went out on my porch to write, knowing this song was probably going to impede my progress. I decided maybe I could use it to help me write Part 2, the part that deals with the end of the world. Nothing was coming to mind except what was in the video I had watched, so I just sat and watched the sunset and just let myself dream for a bit.

Like discovered treasure, all these images started coming and I couldn't even write them down fast enough. The beginning of the song made me think of the losses that are going to come in the end, but then when the music became this really bittersweet melody I pictured Christ returning and the final fight with Satan.

I can't even put into words how this song makes me feel. It makes me so incredibly happy, but then it's like it comes around full circle into sadness. When I began picturing Christ's return and all that encompasses it in the story, it was like unlocking something precious and I cried. I actually cried over an epic piece of trailer music. I've cried more than once over this little beauty. That's how you can tell that something has really touched me.

So you want to hear it? Part of what I wrote is below it (as much as you can read without spoilers). If it seems choppy, that's because I'm skipping parts you can't read yet. ;-)) I have also put markers where certain parts of the story coincide with the music. It does take longer to read than it does for the song to get to the next part, so you may need to play the song again. Also something you should know...my Jesus character is a little Altair-ish (the main guy in the video at the bottom). Yeah, didn't get influenced too much ;-) *sarcasm*. Not the killing, just the general authority and presence and youthfulness that he brings. He was only 33, you remember.


0:00 -- Marie saw before her the crumbling ruins of the city she once knew and thought of those she had known who were buried under it...Her heart was heavy. She allowed her knees to sink to the ground and watched the chaos around her. This wasn't how she thought it would be. Heaven was so beautiful and peaceful. She thought the peace would follow her to earth and she could share it with those who were suffering. Instead she began to suffer with them and could only provide what little wisdom she had acquired out of all there was to know and understand. None of this made sense. There were angels to guard and the Holy Spirit to guide. Why were they even there?

She felt a strange trembling beneath her. Something was happening... 

1:00 -- There was a light in the sky, moving fast like a comet, brighter than anything she had ever seen, even in heaven. It seemed to encompass the entire sky, lighting the world just like the dawn. The clouds put on their best clothes and the mountains literally bowed! 

His valiant white horse rode with power beneath Him, dressed in deep purple and silver, a mane like fire. The King was pure beauty itself, comparable to nothing that had ever been or ever would be. We were made for Him. Everything we've ever loved was our hearts crying out for His Presence, and at last He had come.  

1:12 -- Her face was to the dirt in reverence, beaming in pride. When she looked up, He had come around to her, a broad smile on His face. Her heart leapt within her, tears of joy streaming down her cheeks. 1:19 -- This was the One she loved; her friend, her brother, her husband. He had died for her, fought before The Almighty on her behalf, and worked all of her life to bring her to this moment. She had lived in His Holy City for ten years...and she was reduced to tears of rapture. How much more wonderful for those who were seeing for the first time! 


1:30 -- He dismounted swiftly and pulled her up off the ground. His arms hung at His sides, the stance of a King. She waited, knowing something was going to happen. He simply closed His eyes. 1:35 -- An enormous power began to flow through Him, His mouth opened slightly and His forehead creased. In a few instants, the area was filled with people, their clothes like those Marie remembered wearing in heaven. He had raised them to immortality. His love had conquered after all. Now there was just one more thing to do... 

1:41 -- The remainder of the song is dedicated to Jesus and Satan's final battle, if you can call it a battle. It's more like a one-sided butt whooping. ;)

Rough, to say the least, but that's basically how I roll. I just let the words flow and I'll worry about arranging them better later.

The Assassin's Creed fan video that features the song. Don't ask me why it's showing Altair's backside from one of the fight scenes. o.o I don't think you get a choice about what the thumbnail shows when you upload something onto Youtube. 



Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Making Progress

A few weeks before Christmas I started working on Part 1 again. I figured while it was Christmastime I would write about Marie's Christmas in New England with her aunt. I did write a Christmas chapter last year, but ended up cutting it because it got too much off the beaten track and was practically a story in itself.

I've also been finding some great art to help me see the story more clearly (as I'm a very visual person) and gives me ideas for things to add to it. Here are a few pictures to whet your appetite.

                                            Fiesty Little Thing by ~leonwoon on deviantART

This first one is my idea of Marie, after she has come back from heaven "..For the trumpet will sound, the dead will be raised imperishable, and we will be changed." - 1 Corinthians 15:52

                                               Lady of the Forest by *daekazu on deviantART 

Also when she comes back.

                                http://danideephoto.deviantart.com/art/Summer-Wine-253813301

She's a very sweet girl, as you can see. ; )

                                                     Passive by ~jeremiasch on deviantART
 Alex in heaven =) 


I've also added two new characters in the last year, another girl and another boy, who are a bit older, like maybe later 20's. I'm still not set on that yet. So it will go something like this:

Part 1 Main Characters: Alex & Marie 
Part 2 Main Characters: Eric & Sarah

In Part 2, Eric and Sarah are dealing with end times stuff and Alex and Marie are up in heaven. Then at some point all four are united on earth in a kind of last battle. Should be really fun. ; )

                                              DMC: DANTE by ~fatalis-unus on deviantART

So this is Eric. It's probably the closest to what I'm thinking of that I've come across so far, except maybe the hair and the clothes (is that a cape?!) Maybe a combination of that and this guy on the right:

                                               On the Other Side by *Lleayhe on deviantART

I kind of prefer the longer hair, so I compromised and went with shorter for Part 1 and longer for Part 2. I figured in Part 2 he's not going to be getting his hair cut since it's THE END OF THE WORLD!! ; ) Oh! And he also looks a lot like Brandon Routh, who I just saw on Chuck last week.


                                                    Li close-up by ~Marhiao on deviantART

The lovely Sarah. I'm not sure about her age just yet. Because the 'kids' Alex & Marie are 20-22 (the first story taking place over the course of 2 years) and Eric being around 27...I just wasn't sure where to place her. Maybe in between like 25? The girl in the picture looks pretty innocent, but Sarah is not innocent at all. She's kind of a bad girl.

So there you go! There are lots of minor characters who I haven't really sketched very well in my mind yet. I can't tell you how much it helps to look at pictures to get an idea of what I want them to look like. Once I looked at enough pictures, I started to know what I wanted once I figured out what I didn't want. Maybe soon I will post some concept pictures of...um...stuff. Probably from Part 2 as well. Finding pictures for Part 1's locations are more difficult. Aaaaand maybe I'll post a bit of the text from Part 1...maybe.

Thursday, August 18, 2011

Progress at last

I'm getting tired of relying on other people's artwork to illustrate my own, so I took a stab at drawing a heavenly scene. This isn't exactly how it's going to be described in part 2 since the heaven I'm creating is very bubbly--literally the columns are like prism glass, if you can imagine that. ;-) Anyway, that's way too hard for me to try to draw, so I went with a kind of cream color. A white with a light blue shading would have done better, but I'm a beginner, so give me a break. :-P


This is a very small fraction of what will be described, but it's an idea at least. I wanted to do something more nebula-like at the top, but also lacked the skills there.


In other news, I wrote more yesterday, but it was part two because that's where my heart has been lately. I don't want those good ideas to go to waste just because it's a part I haven't technically started on yet. It will all be ironed out in the end anyway. I've started labeling sections of the story like "B003" so I don't have to worry about having two different parts on the same page.

I've also added a new character who will be in at least two of the parts. Not sure about his fate yet. I thought about doing a coin toss to decide, but I have a feeling I would just do whatever I want anyway.


Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Writer's Block

So it's been a while since I've worked on my story. I've just run out of things to write about I guess. I basically write when I have something to write about, and otherwise I just leave things as they are. I don't sit there for an hour with a blank sheet of paper and try to make something happen. I started writing a bit on Part 2 just because there were things I was starting to think of and I decided I didn't want to risk losing them.

Speaking of the different parts: I may not put these into separate books, like I had originally planned. As it turns out, I'm lacking a ton of material and so they may be more like short stories, maybe pulled into one book, like how The Lord of the Rings is constructed. Only not nearly as long. XD We shall see.

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Pie in the Sky

Have you ever had images and feelings inside of you for such a long time that you could never put into words or even truly understand? Somehow it helps to have artwork that seems in tune with my feelings and to put it into something that moves so it feels alive. That's why I've begun making slideshows.

I found this song that I really like just a few days ago. I've been listening to it a lot since then and specifically while I was browsing book titles on amazon. I found this book about a space expedition and somehow the two themes clicked. The song seems to say in notes what I've been feeling and I realized maybe what my love of space has always been about. You may recall that I once said I distinctly remember at the age of twelve looking up at the stars and aching for something, but I didn't know what. I'm beginning to understand it.

C.S. Lewis put it this way: "We are very shy nowadays of even mentioning heaven. We are afraid of the jeer of 'pie in the sky'. You may think there is another reason for our silence about heaven--namely, that we do not really desire it. I find myself wondering if we have ever desired anything else. You may have noticed that the books you really love are bound together by a single thread. You know very well what is the common quality that makes you love them, though you cannot put it into words. Again, you have stood before a landscape, which seems to embody what you have been looking for all your life; and then turn to the friend at your side who appears to be seeing what you saw--but at the first word a gulf yawns between you, and you realise that this landscape means something totally different to him, that he is pursuing an alien vision and cares nothing for ineffable suggestion by which you are transported." (from The Problem of Pain)

If heaven is made for us and us for it, I have a strong hope that mine will contain this thing that I have been yearning for, a glimmer of which is in this song. I wonder if our mansions are limited to buildings. Maybe that idea is more than just a place to house us; maybe it is a place made just for us that will fit us completely. Some say God is all we need, and that's true in part, but I believe He created us to need things outside of Himself as well.

If we only understood how complex we all are. It pains me to hear people call heaven a fairytale. The resistance to it comes from a shallow understanding of humanity. It must be that instinct to say that we aren't in fact thinking of heaven. We're too smart or too logical or whatever for that sort of nonsense. But we can't hope to find that thing we've yearned for for so long without heaven being part of that picture. Hell is not just the absence of God, but the absence of everything He created for us to long for from the hour of our birth. Being without it must truly be everlasting torment. Not only would the dream of obtaining it be forever lost, but we would lose everything wonderful we have here on earth as well.

Let me share part of my yearnings with you. I've always dreamed of space. I wanted to be an astronaut at one time--didn't everyone?--and I was pretty crushed when it was decided that the space shuttles would retire. Back in 2003 I had a very fleeting ambition to follow in the Columbia astronauts' footsteps and go to space myself. I knew that wasn't likely so I let it go. Then in 2008 when I got to go to the Kennedy Space Center that dream was vigorously renewed and I set it down as a to-do for eternity, when earthly limitations are just too great. Anyway, they had two imax movies that were simply amazing! One of them featured a girl in the future standing before a great valley on the moon and in that valley rested a city. 

Somehow that dream has persisted in my heart for three years. I tried once to put it into art, but without drawing and painting skills, there really is no way to express it well. Maybe someday that will be me standing up there.

I wonder if mankind will ever make a moon colony or advance farther into space. I have a feeling that those dreams of reserved for eternity and we're only meant to taste a small sample of it now.

So buckle your seatbelts: Part 3 is going to have space in it!! =D

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

First Story Slideshow

I've been finding it very difficult to convey to people what my ideas are since they aren't yet on paper, so I spent about a week working on a slideshow. It still only goes so far, but it's a start, and better than nothing.


This video showcases pictures I've collected while working on the project. It's a summary of parts 1-3, without getting into details or spoilers. There are a few things thrown in there that are important in the story, but that people won't necessarily understand until reading the first book. Oh, and please note that there will be some parts about the end times and death and sad things like that, but those pictures didn't really fit with such happy music, so I left them out. I'm going to be producing another video sometime in the future that will cover those parts alone, and will hopefully be spoiler-free.

I couldn't credit everyone in the video description, so here is the list.

-- Part 1 --

0:00 http://skorpikore.deviantart.com/art/Eternal-Autumn-194960254
0:07 http://rdalpes.deviantart.com/art/Village-light-113732325
0:15 http://merl1ncz.deviantart.com/art/A-New-Day-In-Narnia-49148991
0:21 http://fhrankee.deviantart.com/art/Breathe-188682158
0:24 http://mathurin156.deviantart.com/art/Afghan-Girl-180564803
0:27 http://lithiumdeath.deviantart.com/art/Beautiful-Boy-79562085
0:29 http://ennil.deviantart.com/art/Absent-mind-34660827
0:37 http://achmetha.deviantart.com/art/Cross-104117118
0:42 http://dreamca7cher.deviantart.com/art/Im-Telling-You-A-Story-107274183
0:50 http://spotty-polka-dotty.deviantart.com/art/best-123073242
0:54 http://abcxyz91291.deviantart.com/art/Bridge-Over-Troubled-Water-160888941
0:58 http://chiplar.deviantart.com/art/Walk-191350987
1:03 http://perodog.deviantart.com/art/Detail-of-fortunetelling-106049358
1:10 http://souleaterristo.deviantart.com/art/London-Rooftops-198317067
1:14 http://madmanlear.deviantart.com/art/Moon-Lit-Mountains-201699037
1:19 http://skybase.deviantart.com/art/Following-Stars-47284778
1:24 http://oceansoul27.deviantart.com/art/Summer-Shower-196456095
1:29 http://ennil.deviantart.com/art/A-flower-in-each-hand-51817839
1:45 http://www.flickr.com/photos/55914770@N06/5251785831
1:54 http://www.georgiatraveller.com/2011/03/georgian-folk-costume-makes-comeback.html
1:57 http://sabriye.deviantart.com/art/Goodbye-53197339
2:00 http://www.flickr.com/photos/orlandolane/4795126464
2:06 http://ssuunnddeeww.deviantart.com/art/Brilliance-of-the-day-202279020
2:09 http://flina.deviantart.com/art/Tranquil-180033876
2:12 http://c4m30.deviantart.com/art/all-the-memories-we-ve-shared-173538958
2:14 http://c4m30.deviantart.com/art/in-my-dreams-tonight-144214930
2:17 http://whisperfae.deviantart.com/art/Suncatcher-192806601
2:23 http://islandtime.deviantart.com/art/p-e-a-c-e-104498646
2:26 http://drewyboy.deviantart.com/art/Fly-173407635
2:29 http://fhrankee.deviantart.com/art/Good-Morning-152398854
2:33 http://satiiiva.deviantart.com/art/My-morning-162334822

-- Part 2--

2:41 Heaven's bubble
2:45 http://jmonzani.deviantart.com/art/shine-my-life-59417457
2:48 http://snowskadi.deviantart.com/art/Gorod-90073303
2:52 http://justina-m.deviantart.com/art/Little-princess-95799053
2:55 http://tahnja.deviantart.com/art/His-Smile-Lights-The-World-190335880
3:00 http://chymere.deviantart.com/art/Spring-s-soft-light-110197521
3:05 http://narrator366.deviantart.com/art/FFXII-Balthier-110536913
3:10 http://smmr-sen.deviantart.com/art/and-this-is-a-true-friendship-118741916
3:16 http://nezma.deviantart.com/art/Temps-des-cathedrales-117202141
3:19 http://snowskadi.deviantart.com/art/Hall-144827354

-- Part 3 --

3:24 http://thered.deviantart.com/art/Jesus-Rider-on-a-White-Horse-3064515
3:27 http://samuraikirisuten.deviantart.com/art/The-One-True-King-73456736
3:30 http://rykardo.deviantart.com/art/Magical-Forest-100710026
3:32 http://reehbr.deviantart.com/art/Welcome-to-the-forest-145931241
3:34 http://razygraphicdesign.deviantart.com/art/the-return-home-167241301
3:37 http://gamefan84.deviantart.com/art/Visegard-Ideation-142764927
3:41 http://maril1.deviantart.com/art/The-Gate-of-Eternity-140251015
3:45 http://jonsama.deviantart.com/art/Pass-of-Enchantment-112126980
3:49 http://moon-blossom.deviantart.com/art/Olore-Malle-Path-Of-Dreams-13283965
3:52 http://fcagno.deviantart.com/art/Four-Seasons-Forest-Spring-156761046
3:57 http://ldiehl.deviantart.com/art/Golden-Fish-161423948
3:59 http://industrial-forest.deviantart.com/art/Big-Tree-Village-77553313
4:02 http://fcagno.deviantart.com/art/Arrival-in-Sochen-Falls-154535973
4:06 http://new-chaossapphire.deviantart.com/art/I-remember-123562294
4:10 http://megatruh.deviantart.com/art/up-182042062
4:13 http://balaa.deviantart.com/art/Pulpit-on-High-19236872
4:17 http://jerry8448.deviantart.com/art/castles-in-the-air-126583040
4:21 http://daniellieske.deviantart.com/art/Celephais-144296470
4:24 http://samburley.deviantart.com/art/Cultures-of-Nerath-185619909
4:27 http://izaskun.deviantart.com/art/Atlantis-150142385
4:31 http://darkmello.deviantart.com/art/Flying-Whale-111510949
4:35 http://djahal.deviantart.com/art/Peace-Keepers-114092069
4:40 http://loppi.deviantart.com/art/Neoclassical-City-146273750
4:42 http://phoenix-feng.deviantart.com/art/Garden-96088196
4:46 http://mikandi.deviantart.com/art/My-Dream-146322641
4:49 http://uildrim.deviantart.com/art/Simple-Gifts-70367960
4:52 http://fel-x.deviantart.com/art/The-land-of-dinosaurs-178850981
4:56 http://sedeptra.deviantart.com/art/Herfsttij-der-middeleeuwen-141975388
5:00 http://yuumei.deviantart.com/art/Open-up-the-Sky-141433474
5:02 http://kyomu.deviantart.com/art/Dreams-Illustration-163115358
5:06 http://anndr.deviantart.com/art/Dream-with-me-Once-again-144716843
5:11 http://peachysticks.deviantart.com/art/Ice-Wind-1-17335110
5:13 http://tania-s.deviantart.com/art/paradise-62052834
5:18 http://alanise.deviantart.com/art/Once-in-a-dream-177507865
5:21 http://milyknight.deviantart.com/art/My-secret-garden-118099905
5:25 http://b1nd1.deviantart.com/art/Always-Dreaming-134535158
5:29 http://ranarh.deviantart.com/art/Adagio-156059644
5:31 http://fcagno.deviantart.com/art/The-Kiss-in-Sochen-Falls-154943235
5:35 http://kandasama.deviantart.com/art/Peace-184629730
5:38 http://bendianna.deviantart.com/art/Cosmic-Mesa-176588726
5:43 http://natsuki-3.deviantart.com/art/The-magic-light-80397224
5:46 http://thienbao.deviantart.com/art/Lost-in-the-Clouds-21423013
5:49 http://phoenixlu.deviantart.com/art/Happy-Magic-Hour-193405275
5:53 http://shadcarlos.deviantart.com/art/dreamers-141381006