I think God is teaching me how to submit my will to His. This desire to see His purposes succeed in place of mine permeates my life and prayers. His way is so much better than mine. There is comfort is letting Him take care of it. When I'm working on my story, I ask Him to impart His words so that He will be glorified. He knows I care nothing for the ambitions of this world; I just wish to hear "Well done, good and faithful servant." I've prayed over and over again that He would lead me and this seems to be where He is taking me. He has placed me in a unique position that few others could enjoy, let alone thrive in. Though I know I am unqualified, He can do great things through me. I've never been much of a leader. I like having someone to follow. I just want to know where to go and what to do. It doesn't mean it will be easy, but it's a whole lot easier than trying to figure it out on my own.
In other news, I'm just about finished with this book I've been studying about Bible prophecy in preparation for the second story. I haven't really started working on that story yet, but some of the content will have to be decided now to tie the first and second books together. I didn't expect this prophecy book to become a source of comfort, but it really has. We need to understand what is happening in the world and how it fits in with God's plan for humanity. I have a lot more studying to do on the subject, but that's okay because I really enjoy learning.